I'm in a bad mood

5 things I loved this week:

1.  I love having the biggest paper cut of my life on my middle finger.  I love not knowing where I got it from so I don't even know how to prevent it happening again.


2. I loved being too spineless and slow-thinking to stop the disabled guy that works next to the shop from hugging me. Before the shut down, when he saw me he expected a hug and I never minded because I had nothing to lose. Now, hugs have a different meaning. And I love being ashamed for becoming rigid like a board while he hugged me, instead of being a normal person and saying, hey I don't feel comfortable hugging you. 


3. I love looking for apartments to rent, but not being able to actually rent them because I am unemployed and you have to have proof of employment to rent. I love not knowing where my life is going.


4. I love the helpless feeling of not knowing how to help the ones I love.


5. I love feeling like my closest friend doesn't ever want to be close to me again. I wish I had fought harder at the beginning of this to keep being around them. I had spent every day with them up until that point. If I had it, then they had it. Now it's too late and they're treating me like I'm contaminated. 

I'm sleeping like I'm on 3rd shift

5 things I loved this week:

1.  When I was in college, I bought one of these Under NY Sky aprons for screen printing and one for ceramics and I loved them. Then when the pandemic happened, this company was the first one that sent me an email (because I was already on their email list) about them switching production to mask making. I bought some in black and they fit great, as expected.


2. King of Staten Island came out on demand Friday. I love the idea of all movies coming straight to the internet when they are ready to come out. Pete Davidson reminds me of someone I used to be close with so I have a soft spot for him. I don't know if I would really recommend everyone rent this movie, but it was something to do.


3. Some friends of mine participated in a t-shirt design campaign and my shirt came in the mail today. The print is really lovely in person. This gradient design is an impressive one because of the smallness of the dots, but all of the designs are really beautiful. And it's got a great message.
   
   
   


4. An oral history of Mad Max: Fury Road


5. My pothos is growing a new leaf and I'm pretty happy about it.
   
   
   

honey dijon

This week was a sorry week for finding things to love.

5 things I loved this week:

1.  The movie Late Night -- it's available on amazon prime. I truly adore Emma Thompson's acting and also Mindy Kaling can do no wrong.


2. The book The Hating Game by Sally Thorne -- One of those trope-y romance novels where the main characters hate each other then love each other. Possibly my all time favorite trope. I also love when a grumpy character is soft to one special person.