"Some days are good, baby"

Best thing today:
Today I got a out of the blue thank you note plus a gas card from my Aunt that pretty much said thanks for always being helpful. So incredibly nice.

I gotta think of something nice to pass on to somebody else.

BTT

Best thing today:
Golden Flake cheese curls
Refrigerated Coca-cola
Homemade chocolate chip cookie

Less than three

Best thing today:
No A/C sucks, but it's forced me to spend many a day, windows down music up.
There's something about clearing your mind and singing as loud as you can. I forget how easily I can change my mood by listening to my music.
Also, B jokingly proposed to me so that was weird.

"All rights reserved. Lefts, too."

I'm smack in the middle of the JSU library's copy of Aaron Draplin's book Pretty Much Everything & I'm eating it up. It's a big, dense book, full of tiny type. I've borrowed it for about a month now. It's taken me so long because I know that when I aim to flip though only a few pages, time stops & I get sucked in for an hour, or 3. (I'm not disciplined in the slightest. Sometimes I feel guilty about it, like when I mess up other people's lives, but mostly I just wallow in my chaos and disorder.) Draplin's definitely in my list of all time favorites. His humor blows me away, page after page. And I'm hoping that by reading his book, some of his strict self control & wisdom will rub off on me. I'm saving my pennies now to snag a copy of my own to cherish forever. Until then, the library is my best friend.


Best thing today: Even when I'm being a total piece of shit, people are nice to me. I don't deserve it, but I notice their kindness and I'm thankful for it.

our time is now

As much as it appalls me, I think my love language is actually gifts. Like geez, how superficial can I get? But it's true. Gifts make me feel loved. Also, hugs. But, also, gifts.
I think I've realized this because today a friend brought me this book that they picked out especially for me. It's incredibly thoughtful. It's old and full of ceramics and it's great.

I just took that love language quiz and it confirmed my suspicions. 

//MY RESULTS//

Physical Touch A person whose primary language is Physical Touch is, not surprisingly, very touchy. Hugs, pats on the back, and thoughtful touches on the arm—they can all be ways to show excitement, concern, care, and love. Physical presence and accessibility are crucial, while neglect or abuse can be unforgivable and destructive. Appropriate and timely touches communicate warmth, safety, and love to you.

	Receiving Gifts Don’t mistake this love language for materialism; the receiver of gifts thrives on the love, thoughtfulness, and effort behind the gift. If you speak this language, the perfect gift or gesture shows that you are known, you are cared for, and you are prized above whatever was sacrificed to bring the gift to you. A missed birthday or a hasty, thoughtless gift would be disastrous—so would the absence of everyday gestures. Gifts are heartfelt symbols to you of someone else's love and affection for you.
	Quality Time In Quality Time, nothing says “I love you” like full, undivided attention. Being there for this type of person is critical, but really being there—with the TV off, fork and knife down, and all chores and tasks on standby—makes you feel truly special and loved. Distractions, postponed activities, or the failure to listen can be especially hurtful. Whether itʼs spending uninterrupted time talking with someone else or doing activities together, you deepen your connection with others through sharing time.
	Acts of Service Can helping with homework really be an expression of love? Absolutely! Anything you do to ease the burden of responsibilities weighing on an “Acts of Service” person will speak volumes. The words he or she most wants to hear: “Let me do that for you.” Laziness, broken commitments, and making more work for them tell speakers of this language their feelings don’t matter. When others serve you out of love (and not obligation), you feel truly valued and loved.
	Words of Affirmation Actions don’t always speak louder than words. If this is your love language, unsolicited compliments mean the world to you. Hearing the words, “I love you,” are important— hearing the reasons behind that love sends your spirits skyward. Insults can leave you shattered and are not easily forgotten. You thrive on hearing kind and encouraging words that build you up.

Best thing today:
Drove home while the sun was setting, which is my absolute most favorite time to be outside. I continue to be amazed at the sky during sunset. It was pink & orange & blue & purple all over the place this evening.

Overly emotional

Best thing today:
Having 3 pairs of shoulders nearby to lean on feels pretty nice.

"I'm having a weird day."

I tweeted this almost exactly a year ago and this whole week, it's been so relevant. Is it that summertime sadness? Things have just been off this week.

I've been going over in my head all day all the ways I've fucked up and it's really bringing me down so I'm gonna stop. I'm going to take time to be grateful. I'm starting up a daily habit. Something so small that even I can keep up. I'm going to remind myself of the best part of my day, everyday. I'm not being unique. Lots of people do this. Supposedly it'll change my life. And maybe it really will. I'm hoping it'll make me feel less lonely. Power of positive thinking, right?


Best thing today:
A co-worker came in to the office and said to me, "It was so nice to hear your sweet voice answer the phone this morning."